all of us want to be great men, don't we? i want to be great. but at this point in time, all i feel is inadequacy. everywhere around me are great people with all walks of achievements. and then, i'll turn back and look at myself in the mirror. what have i achieved?

i know what i want in life, but every step i take feels like i'm walking on quicksand. with every step i take, i sink in a bit. i feel like even before i can reach where i want to be, i'll already be drowned...

my heart aches badly because i'm so far away from my dreams. and it's even worse when all i see are the flaws that i have and i have no clue how to make things work. there are tons of problems but i have no idea how to begin solving them.

i guess people around me thinks i'm over-reacting, which in fact, i know it's understandable because they are not seeing things in my light. i've already reached that point in life when i know this is what i want and if i'm not going to be doing this for a living, i will never be happy doing whatever that i'm going to do to live.

my dreams, i am so clear about it. right now, it's all these physical limitations that i am stuck with. i need a concrete plan to resolve these limitations... and the problem is...

how do i start?

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Dear Blogspot

i realised how twitter and facebook have altered my way of writing down my life experiences. i'm more of a "spasm" emotional person who updates these "spasms" periodically via twitter and facebook.

oh yes my youtube channel as well. =) 56 subscribers!!! not fantastic number, but i'm writing songs for 56 people who believes in my music!

i knew this is what i'm passionate about. writing songs to heal broken hearts and souls... share a story or an experience.. connecting with people through a song... how wonderful is that? =)

do subscribe to me on youtube www.youtube.com/mrjustincross i need all the support i can!

check out my facebook profile www.facebook.com/edisonjustincross

and follow me on twitter www.twitter.com/edjustin

Yours truly
Mr Cross