i wish i could, look through your eyes, and read your mind. so i know, where do i stand, in your heart.

i wish i could, hold your hands, and stare up at the sky. not knowing if it's wrong or right. just you and me, without a care for the world.

i wish i could, evaporate into the wind, so i could be somewhere else, not here, by myself.

i wish i could, be there with you,

until the end of time.

well all things happen for a reason and in life, everything is fated.

well, probably the reasoning and throwing all responsibility to fate seems all to easy, but it's not.

so can you accept certain things in life when it just has to knock you straight in your face?

if you can, you probably accepted that in life, there are just some things that ain't gonna be smooth for you. and you'll probably be able to live in contentment, in peace.

the thing about being at peace with yourself, is definitely not easy for me.

coz i dislike it when i don't perform, as in, when i don't carry out the plans i had planned or when i didn't execute it well enough.

all these parts and parcel of life and the everyday routines, i guess, life just ain't so easy after all (if you decide to mark out every single detail according to your plan).

oh wells, so what to do? listen to my advice, ignore it and just live it. who knows, you might find that sparkle in this trench of soot.

i'm a disaster, complete with devastating after effects.

i'm starcrossed, you've got to be brave to be my friend.

i'm the worst nightmare anyone can have, and i hate that.

totally.

today, the sky was partly cloudy, very sunny. i lay in my bed, staring out. all my life, i've been busy figuring out how to get on with society. it's complete package together with the accompanying rules and norms. today, i chose to differ. freedom is my choice for the day. and for today, i'm not going to pretend to be the same. today, i choose to be myself.

frustration,
it overwhelmed for a while.

i didn't know how, or what,
triggered this ill feeling.

maybe it was the words i heard, or read,
just suddenly, it subsided.

i could hear my heart beat,
the sound of the breeze,

i felt at peace.

everything seemed so quiet, so tranquil,

i felt brave.

i have always been afraid to be alone,
but i realised, i can live on my own.

but what about you?

you are the piece that completes me.
so how do i live on, feeling empty?

maybe this void in my life,
is the only reason for me to carry on.

it reminds me, i was completed,
and that it's left empty now,

because i love you.
more than i love myself.

that's why, i can let you go.
maybe someday, you'll realise that i'd never left.

then you'll know, even without me around,
your life, has always been,

completed.

who would care, if not you.
if i should feel so down,
if i was crying.

who would care, if not you.
when i got bad results,
when i'm feeling frustrated.

who would care, if not you.
if the world came crashing down on me.

who would care, if not you.
if i stop loving you.

who would care, if not you.
if i felt miserable coz i'm waiting for you.

who would care, if not you.
who would cry, if not you.
who would.

only you would.

i love you.

i'm certain your eyes were looking at me
the way your head turned,
your smile, i could never forget.

you were standing so close,
but i felt you were in a distance.
you belong, to somebody else.

i would take your hand,
run away from the world,
but i know, you belong here.

i shouldn't take you away.
we're from worlds apart.
maybe that's why my heart aches.

we'll never be together.