A DREAM IT'LL ALWAYS BE.

recently, i'm very attracted to black.
it's home,

i feel.
for there's nothing much in there.

a trench of nothingness,
a representation of an oblivion.

i'm trapped in a shell,
limited by its futile comparability.

because i'd a premonition;
of a no sense behavior.

i'm pretending,
can't you see?

a smile that sought to be,
a connection to this world.

i'm always behind this,
never quite close.

it hurts,
i don't belong.

it's a delusion i can't comprehend.
a feeling that consumes my faith.

i'm faithless already.
though i still hold on to my dreams.

i'm hopeful.
i'm sincere.

but i'm damned to be.
never was i lucky enough.

because there's no angels nor demons.
for there's nothing for me.

a lonesome soul,
that drifts in stillness.

a person never quite understood.
i'm judged by my own facade.

fuck you all,
for i'm not like that.

never was i quite like me.
because you'd never seen,

the fucking real me.
damn you,

if you think you knew.
for i'm not someone quite like anyone.

i laugh for i'd nothing to say.
i smile for i'd nothing to show.

a true self never revealed,
a mistaken identity i carry.

stupid people,
fuck your ignorance.

there was never a day the sky was white and blue.
for it's just a dream.

a dream, it'll always be.

EXTREME CONVERSATION.

gerald... says:
hey jude

whiteskyblue.blogspot.com [all about love] says:
hey geraldine

gerald... says:
judette

whiteskyblue.blogspot.com [all about love] says:
geraldinian

gerald... says:
edimeloson

whiteskyblue.blogspot.com [all about love] says:
geraldinianim

gerald... says:
eddy

whiteskyblue.blogspot.com [all about love] says:
ger

gerald... says:
edi-san

whiteskyblue.blogspot.com [all about love] says:
germaine

gerald... says:
edi-sama-roti-plata

whiteskyblue.blogspot.com [all about love] says:
ger-mee-goreng-add-egg

gerald... says:
edi's-such-a-retard

whiteskyblue.blogspot.com [all about love] says:
ger-is-no-better

gerald... says:
edi's-nonsense-must-stop

whiteskyblue.blogspot.com [all about love] says:
ger-i-am-going-to-blog-tis-conversation

gerald... says:
edi-better-dont-or-else-ger-is-not-gg-to-talk-to-u-poo

whiteskyblue.blogspot.com [all about love] says:
ger-why-cannot-it-is-so-interesting-i-dun-care

gerald... says:
edi-fine-loh-mee

whiteskyblue.blogspot.com [all about love] says:
ger-haha-m

gerald... says:
edi-goooooo-gooooo

gerald... says:
eh eh eh eh

gerald... says:
stop already

whiteskyblue.blogspot.com [all about love] says:
lol

gerald... says:
u better dont

whiteskyblue.blogspot.com [all about love] says:
haha alrite la

BECAUSE.

promises are broken.
truth became lies.

words are made up.
feelings never existed.

crying don't help.
tears are fake.

i am strong.
you are weak.

i believe.
you don't.

sincerity is exploited.
kindness is stupid.

it's you.
it's your fault.

you are insecured.
you are unworthy.

i'm affected.
i'd opened my heart.

i trusted.
i forgave.

i overlooked.
i ignored.

i thought.
fuck. i thought.

there's no because.
simply because.

you suck.

"WILL YOU WAIT FOR ME."

coincidental or was it on purpose
the way he walked over the trench.

like a traveller carrying his burden
in his mind, he thinks of where he's heading.

way too focused on what's ahead
didn't he noticed the girl by his side?

quietly she walked with him
all she wanted was him to take a look.

look at me, she whispered in her heart.
but the weight only gets heavier.

his steps multiplied, leading into a chase.
she fell down. didn't have the strength to get up.

he never once turned back
in his eyes, there was only what's lying ahead.

she looked ahead to see what he's looking.
it was then she realised, it isn't her he's looking for.

she wished she was the one for him
the way that he was the only for her.

he was the sun that lights up her way.
the mountain that she could depend on.

she watched as he disappeared into the distant.
she felt tears rolling silently down her cheeks.

she realised
it wasn't him that left her.

it was her who couldn't catch up.

SILENCING THAT SINGLE MOMENT.

it's in my subconscious
where i learnt my lesson.

of treasuring something
for changes is always coming.

it's painful to go
but who has the right to stay?

seconds pass
nothing to catch hold of

life is simple
it is very cruel.

moments that you'd spent
on one thing or another.

may just be a moment
you regret forever.

be silent.
listen.

maybe.
then.

you'll be heard.

YOU WERE THERE.

on 1 october 1986
a little girl was born.

she was the most beautiful baby
she has pretty pretty eyes

that sparkles in the light
the day was warmed

filled with so much laughter and glee
it was a heart-warming scene

she smiles at cartoons on tv
she giggles when she played with glitz

it's just amazing
how this little girl

brightens up
a very cloudy day

smile my baby
it's your day.

on 1 october 1986
the day was beautiful

because you were born.