Dear Blogspot

i realised how twitter and facebook have altered my way of writing down my life experiences. i'm more of a "spasm" emotional person who updates these "spasms" periodically via twitter and facebook.

oh yes my youtube channel as well. =) 56 subscribers!!! not fantastic number, but i'm writing songs for 56 people who believes in my music!

i knew this is what i'm passionate about. writing songs to heal broken hearts and souls... share a story or an experience.. connecting with people through a song... how wonderful is that? =)

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Yours truly
Mr Cross

THE HEART SPEAKS STUPIDLY.

sometimes, i really wonder how much i've grown in regards to how i deal with relationships. tough issue for me still actually, in fact, i'm still stuck in a hole. i can't bring myself to completely submit to love. i'm still skeptical, very careful. at the end of the day, i don't want to be foolish and get hurt for being stupid again.

i've learnt to use my brain more often than usual when making decisions. at times, when i like my heart speak, i realise how stupid i sound. how vulnerable i am exposing myself to people. i cannot allow that. i don't want people to scar me again.

i'm still waiting for you to come save me from where i am. where are you? honestly, i'm fine alone nowadays but it'll be good if you come right at me and just tear down these walls. and instead of falling, you lift me up.

let's get away from here. yeah, i'm still waiting for you.

IMAGINATION



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Lyrics:
They were sitting there
Talking about their dreams
I was standing there
Thinking about my own

I was listening
Closely to what they said
Then I realised
That I was somewhere there
Somewhere there

We were talking about hopes
And dreams and then
The world fills up
With love and lights to see
Imagination becomes reality
Someday I Know I will get there

Do you believe
That I'm gonna get there someday
Do you believe
I'm gonna take you to the stars

Then I can take you on
A journey there
And you could see that
Every single dream is possible
And I can change your mind
And make you see
That dreams are dreams
Only if you dream
Without believing

today was an eventful day for me, with millions of thoughts struck in my head. the best of all, all these thoughts were all about one simple idea - passion.

i'm going to do something really stupid here, but i hope you don't mind. i'm going to list out the things that i love to do. things that will energize me the more i get myself involved in.

1) i love to write. not just stories, but great ideas, philosophies, enlightenment, etc. i love to inspire with words.

2) music and lyrics. tell a story and inspire with a song.

3) experiencing life. through the third person perspective. observation of people, in the society. to seek understanding, and experience the pieces of life - through others.

and the best medium for me to translate all these thoughts and emotions are through the power of language and music.

the purpose of listing out these passions is for me to voice out the avenues available for me to transform them into reality. at the same time, for me to evaluate the pros and cons of 'realizing' my dreams.

1) all i need is to start writing! since i love to write, i should work on it. be really good at what i do. someday, someone will bound to see the value in my writings and publish me. well, if i'm not going to start now, then when?

2) writing music, to me, isn't about the fame or money. to me, it is about sharing these pieces of my life with people. and hopefully through these pieces of my life, it can heal and inspire the broken hearted - the same way many people's pieces of life had healed my broken heart and inspired me to become a better person.

3) the only way for me to experience more of life is through meeting people. i should interact with more people, on a deeper level, to gain more perspectives to life. and of course, to open up my heart, mind, and soul, to understand crazy novel ideas and thoughts.

someday, i do wish to complete this puzzle on life.

words, they sting like bees because after they stung, they just die off and mean nothing any more than that moment of angst. i'm afraid i'm a vicious verbal murderer that kills with the poisonous stinging words.

then again, if you know me well enough, how poisonous the words are, simply reflects how much it means to me that i have to go through such painful process of generating such vast collection of vocabulary to renounce your presence.

seriously, we're like kids, forever in a competition for the most minute issues. it's time to grow up and look forward into things that are far more important than these. i always complain about how my past have made me a broken man, but then again, if i had never experienced that, i will never be as strong as i am today.

we all fall, and we pick ourselves up. but i come to a conclusion that for me, i'll have to fall a million times before i can succeed for that very once. (accepts fate) and i do believe that God has it all planned out for me. what is there for me to worry at all? without faith, i will be worrying like mad now. but then, with faith, i'll just take whatever that comes my way. i know as long as i believe, i'll get the best out of every situations.

throw me in the deep end of the ocean and i'll learn how to swim butterfly strokes.