if there was really a right way to identify my position in this place, i would really be happy. do i want to be like those people? never wanting to come to terms with reality. i am found, but are you settled? are you still searching, for that piece of paradise on earth? who are you, what do you really want from me? is this going to be life, all the way for ever. uncertain, unaware, seeking to understand that very rule to your life. where does this head to, where will i end up standing? do i want this life, or am i just afraid? nothing is cast in stone, even the hardest rock can wear off in time. will i come to my senses before my life comes to an end. will i be with the person, who fits in completely. maybe it's you, maybe it's never been. maybe you'll become, maybe i'll find. maybe it'll end, maybe then it'll start. maybe we'll keep quiet. just waiting for time to come find us.

because if this is love, i know
it doesn't matter who you're with.

because if this is love, i know
all i want for you is more than

the fact that i want you so badly.

because if this is love, i know
it's not about me, it's all about you.

because if this is love, i know
i will be able to overlook my own needs

and love you unconditionally.

because if this is love,
this should be enough.

鱼 - 陈绮贞

"带不走的丢不掉的让大雨侵蚀吧

让它推想我在辩解奋不顾身挣扎

如果有一个世界浑浊的不像话

我会疯狂的哀伤

带不走的留不下的我全都交付他

让他捧着我在手掌自由自在挥洒

如果有一个怀抱勇敢不计代价

别让我飞 将我温柔环绕

原谅我飞 曾经眷恋太阳"

It’s like dark clouds enshrouding the vision
I can barely see
Like my mind isn’t working
I can barely move my being
Entangled in self-inflicted sorrow
Nobody knows

I drown myself in alcohol
Hoping my mind would stop its function
It’s hard to look you in the eyes
When your eyes are looking
Past my sight

Walk away, shift out of my space
This is not the place for me
Let it go, let you go
I should be moving pass this phase

Entangled by affection so deep
Enshrouded by the only person I see
Like water it’s tainted
It’s never going to be clean

no point speaking out your mind when no one bothers to listen. anyone who care to share this heavy load in my head? my heart feels heavy, a little aching. i'd brought this to myself. it helps to not think, it helps pretending not to care. who am i? what rights do i have? none. all these, can only be said here, for myself to listen. because it ain't that important to you. nope, not that important at all.