there he was, born in the light, always envied those, that stood in the dark. how he wished, he was the dark knight, one that had nothing to lose, one that had nothing to fear.

he played with fire, he toyed with elements, where does he land, here in the dark, accompanied by those he envied. how he felt like, a dream come true. how it seemed so perfect, so undeniably attractive.

nevertheless, thoughts crossed his mind, who he was, who he really is.

that's when it starts falling in. it all starts to clear up, at least, that's what he hopes.

i wish i could, look through your eyes, and read your mind. so i know, where do i stand, in your heart.

i wish i could, hold your hands, and stare up at the sky. not knowing if it's wrong or right. just you and me, without a care for the world.

i wish i could, evaporate into the wind, so i could be somewhere else, not here, by myself.

i wish i could, be there with you,

until the end of time.

well all things happen for a reason and in life, everything is fated.

well, probably the reasoning and throwing all responsibility to fate seems all to easy, but it's not.

so can you accept certain things in life when it just has to knock you straight in your face?

if you can, you probably accepted that in life, there are just some things that ain't gonna be smooth for you. and you'll probably be able to live in contentment, in peace.

the thing about being at peace with yourself, is definitely not easy for me.

coz i dislike it when i don't perform, as in, when i don't carry out the plans i had planned or when i didn't execute it well enough.

all these parts and parcel of life and the everyday routines, i guess, life just ain't so easy after all (if you decide to mark out every single detail according to your plan).

oh wells, so what to do? listen to my advice, ignore it and just live it. who knows, you might find that sparkle in this trench of soot.

i'm a disaster, complete with devastating after effects.

i'm starcrossed, you've got to be brave to be my friend.

i'm the worst nightmare anyone can have, and i hate that.

totally.

today, the sky was partly cloudy, very sunny. i lay in my bed, staring out. all my life, i've been busy figuring out how to get on with society. it's complete package together with the accompanying rules and norms. today, i chose to differ. freedom is my choice for the day. and for today, i'm not going to pretend to be the same. today, i choose to be myself.