The Regurgitation of Emotive Illustrations

i cant breathe properly. i have this constant tightness in my chest that keeps me from exhaling and inhaling with ease. this sucks. i cried earlier this morning because i couldnt contain all these emotions coming right at me, especially when i see your presence pop up from my computer. gawd it's painful.

im trying to think positive, trying to act positive, trying to BE positive. but deep inside, im feeling like shit. my heart is aching, my mind keeps thinking. ugh, its really driving me crazy.

silence, the best way to get me going haywire because i dont like periodic breaks, i dont like emotion pauses. it kills me just to be patient and... wait. waiting to be decapitated, waiting to be disposed, waiting to be thrown away, waiting to be

alone.

best of all, im doing ALL these, ALL at the same time, and im still breathing.

coz that egoistic male in me still refuses to admit i lost.