THE THINGS THAT OUGHT TO BE, THAT FAILED TO MAKE US SEE

finally, a direction
a destination in sight.

it's not by coincidents or chances that choices are made
it's by you who holds the future to your destiny.

internal locus of control, such profound phrase
i guess this is what i have been searching for.
the control to who i am to be
the person i ought to be.

life is not very much about the length,
but pretty much about its breadth.
sometimes, we worry too much about what's gonna happen
whether what ought to happen, will it eventually be

the process of living is tiring
when all you think of is the destination
because it is still so faraway,
you're cheating yourself trying to get there so soon.
you're missing out the "living"
when you are busy getting there.

we often sulk about the things that we don't get
often envy those who possess what we want,
it's because we always chase after the things
that we long for, that our hearts desire
that we neglecte the things that we need
and that we've already gotten
the things that are there for us
that we've always taken for granted.

before we blame life for not giving us
the basics of living
we should really look around us
and thank life for giving the things


that we've already gotten.

KEEP MOVING FORWARD.

we should all take failures with pride in our strides. we should all celebrate the wonderful failures that may one day become successes. people learn from their mistakes and from then on become better people. we pretty much learn nothing from successes, don't you think?

HEROES.

there was a time when we all believed in heroes. the time when we stared up at the skies dreaming of having superpowers. i wished that i had angel's wings so i could fly amongst the clouds into the blue.

i dreamt that i flew past new york city staring down at the endless flow of cars that resembled marching ants from my perspective. people so tiny you can barely see them moving. the mountains so peaceful. the fields so green, sparkling like gold in the setting sun.

if there was a chance, a possiblity of us possessing a kind of power.

what would yours be?

RETRIEVE.

i'm feeling the need to grow up again. it's like i've been restraining my thoughts by flooding my daily routines with wholesome plays. i guess i've reached my saturation point. again.

all good things have to come to an end. the ignorance act doesn't work anymore, for now.

school's starting real soon. it is a turning point for me since i'd not been a very good student in college. heh. i'm kinda anticipating the homework, projects and exams.

i guess i'm kinda lost for a while. it took quite a few incidents to wake me up. well, guess it's time to pick up the pieces.

i wanna be good.

seriously.

TAKE HIM.

for you i will.

as we all looked into the skies that are blued ever so beautifully by the reflection of the seas that covered earth mostly, i can't help but wonder if there will be a silver lining behind this already-so-bright scenery.

i wish for a miracle.

sometimes we stare into the mirror for hours, looking at the person looking back at you. sometimes i realised, i don't know him at all. he looks so familiar, yet i never felt close to him. he's a distant reflection of the reflection of my true self. i no longer remember who he is.

he needs to leave.

i wish i could stab myself in the heart, bleed, and die. yes it's emo. no, i'm not acting. it's just that we all reach a point in life when you are so choked, you can't breathe. no, you can't step back and take a breather. i'm standing in the middle of a future of poison and a retreat of death.

somebody, take me away.